i have so much emotions within me, but i can't find anything to channel it through.

dare i say it?

i feel so alone in this world and i'd give anything to talk to you again.

you only know me when you need me

an irrational and guilty mind calls for an irrational and regrettable decision. you're getting exactly what you asked for. no more compromises and chances. this is the last time.

you throw this every chance you get. just shows how much it means to you. instead of keeping it safe, you're the one breaking it up. i know better now. no more, no more.

today is a good day :)

sometimes i wonder why i have an asshole for a boyfriend.

and after everything, i'm doing this for you.

a new start may be a new end



tonight

words are just full of lies. theres nothing better but actions to back it up. there is no such thing as . there never was. everything was a lie from the beginning. 

is it hard to pretend and talk shit? its easier now when there's no risk to take isn't it? when it's comfortable and all that? it isn't going to be like that for long. i am going to show you just how much i'm worth. because i am worth it. and this is going to be a distant memory that will always be looked backed to with utmost regret.

you just never learn, do you? i always told you not to depend on anyone else. you're alone in this world. you shouldn't have let yourself go like that. all that will come to you is sadness and disappointment. and in this coming year, you're just going to get more hurt and beaten down. and absolutely no one will be there for you. know that there's an easy way out to all of this and with only a little push, you won't have to worry about anything at all anymore. even on a day full of new beginnings, you can't keep your shit together. what more the rest of the year? there's nothing left for you in this lifetime. you were born alone and you will die alone. this should end now.